What is it like to have that one true friend? Growing up in
the org, I never really had friends. I had many acquaintances, some of which
were “worldly”. But I can’t say that I ever had that one person that I could
pour my soul out to, someone that I could just talk to. My siblings and I were
not allowed to have “worldly friends”, so natural friendships were never able
to develop. In the org, most of the kids that I grew up with were jerks and I never
fit in with them anyway. Most of the kids that I grew up with are not associated
with the org anymore anyway.
I would like to think that I am successful. I went to
college, own my own home anhave a decent job. My siblings weren’t so fortunate.
So I guess in that respect, I am okay.
I hate to admit it, but my wife and I are having serious
issues, in part to me learning TTATT. I never really fit the mold of a “spiritual
mate”, meaning that our relationship was doomed from the start. Your mate is
supposed to be your best friend. That is not the case with us. In fact, I’m not
sure I have a worst enemy then her. Every time we get into a discussion (which usually
turns into an argument) about the org, she threatens to record me and turn me
in the brothers for apostasy! Does that sound like a friend? What few worldly associates
I did have, she made me cut off all contact with them as a condition of our marriage.
Since I never really had friends in the org, it has left a void that has never
been filled.
So what is it like to have that one true friend?